A Girl's Best Friend

Saturday, I felt better, meaning it was the first day I felt myself smile and feel a calmness. That was SO short lived because I woke up this morning in a funk and found myself sad again. Today it has been one week since Dymond’s passing and I am still so VERY sad. My Mom scheduled a memorial for Dymond tonight at rainbowsbridge.com (you can search her name) and it is for everyone, who has loved and lost a pet. Some of you may want to do this as well. 🙂

Thank you for the continued support, love, encouragement and uplifting sentiments. I greatly appreciate each of you, as you have made this transition that much easier to cope with.

It has been 6 days since I lost my best friend. The one who never said a word, yet she helped me through so much.

Today seems a little better, but now I feel guilty because I smiled. I feel like I should be sad and crying. I feel like it is too soon to smile and too soon to laugh.

I’m trying to hold my head up,

I’m trying to see the sun through the rain,

I’m trying to smile,

I’m trying to hold in my tears,

I’m trying to be strong,

…but what I am going to do is count my blessings and thank God because even through my pain and tears I know in my heart you will live.

Dymond you were such an inspiration to me and your unwavering love and courage blessed my life.

People commend my strength, but the truth is I feel so lost. You see everyday for the past 9 years was effortlessly devoted to my Dymond. Every decision I made, every trip I planned, every move I made, from the most small things to the more elaborate – Dymond had to be cared for. I would have moved mountains and parted the sea for her if I could. Now, not having that in my life, leaves me lost. Am I alone?

June 15, 2015 will be embedded in my mind for the rest of my life because it was the day my Dymond gained her wings. Right now I don’t have much to type, I am searching for the strength to share my baby’s story.