Each day gets a little harder, not easier. Today I was reminded of the reason why I used to get up a little earlier every morning. I knew I needed extra time to care for Dymond, but now I get up and I have too much time to get myself ready. UGH…who said this gets easier?!? Every task and every morning I wake up just reminds me that her presence is so deeply missed. (((sigh))) Dymond you will always be my inspiration.
Yes eautiful Dymind will inspire us all for an eternity.
She certainly can show others in this journey how to love their stroller! Of course, Dymond had a “Chariot”…as Royalty should!!
No dear Katrina, I’m afraid it gets harder before the pain of loss starts to ease. We are all here to PROMISE you that it does ease. A good moment here, a good moment there….. a crash here, a crash there.
There are different phases we all go through and every time frame is different. We all have to go through it…alone…but surrounded by the love and understanding of others who have lived through it.
And you know what? As painful as the grief is, as painful as the void is, to never have had a life without the love of our dogs and cats would be another kind of loss that none of us would ever want to know.
Your faith is strong. Your connection with Dymond is strong. Your faith is not “visible” or “touchable” per se. Dymond is not “visible” or “touchable”…but you KNOW both are within you.
As you post, I know Dymond would love it if you include a memory that made you smile! Perhaps it was so.ething “that little stinker” did when she went in vacation with you, your mom and your Grandma.
Looking forward to hearing more about “Dymond Paws”….one step at a time.
Love to you…
Sally and My Eternal Light Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle
PS. I did visit the Rainbowbridge.com but it was very late. I quietly celebrated her life and “tapped the candle” for her.
Sending you love
Thank you Sally. Your words of comfort give me hope during this very difficult time.
This will sound extremely odd, but it is a Dymond story. One day when I came home I saw pieces of the drywall missing in my room. I didn’t think anything of it until I noticed teeth marks on the wall. You may be thinking that my home was being built or why did I leave her in an unfinished room. The house was finished, had been for years, and there were no holes anywhere. I figured it out…the drywall bandit was Dymond. For some reason she like chewing on the walls. After I patched it, painted it and sprayed some stuff on the wall (bought at the pet store supposed to keep dogs from chewing), Dymond re-chewed it. After I patched it, painted it and sprayed again I just put the dresser in front of it – only to find a new hole in a different spot. (((Shaking my head))) The dog who ate the wall as a treat….little stinker!!!
It does get easier … but like Sally said … not before it gets harder. I was without a purpose for so long .. the early mornings – that was mine and Shelby’s special time so I filled it with things we loved together. Lazy walks on the beach, lazy walks around the block, coffee on the couch. I talked to her (a lot ). I felt her spirit with me. And I cried. A lot. I looked at her photos. I held her bandanna in my arms and I drank in the scent of her toys. And I forced myself to be strong and be out because that was what I knew Shelby would want for me.
Dymond wants to see you smile. She is sending you strength. I hope you can feel it. She will send you signs. She is with you always now… she is your forever angel and I hope you can feel her.
I know it’s hard and painful and feels like the sobbing will never stop but it does … I promise you. I am 14 months into this and I still cry but not as much as at first. I can think about the good times and smile. I know Shelby is smiling too.
Sending hugs and peace …
alison
Alison that is exactly how I feel. We had so many things we did together, now having to do them alone is SO HARD! It takes all my strength to leave the house and come back. I truly look forward to the days when I can smile more than I cry. I know she is watching over me and I now we will be together again. Thank you so much, sometimes I feel like what I am feeling is odd.
Be good to yourself Katrina, you aren’t on anyone’s timeline but your own. It’s hard but you will get there. Just get up each day and take it as best as you can. Dymond will be there by your side helping you along. {{{hugs}}}}
Thank you Rene. I’m taking one day at a time. I feel Dymond’s love and presence.